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MINGLE ∞ LOG — June 2025

Mingle ∞ Log
No Lifeguard on Duty
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Summary
What's going on?
An unexpected heat wave in mid-June, coupled with the cycling shutdown of all air conditioning units in motels across the Blocks, has made the summer unbearable. Meanwhile, the ever-eager storm chaser, Felix Bjurstrom, has uncovered a fancy resort with a pool in a diffusion zone only 1 hour out from Panorama. Lucky, right? Well...kind of. It's got some quirks.
When is this happening?
June 10 - 30
What should I know?
  • This area is one of many diffusion zones that appear throughout the planet.
  • A storm chaser is someone dedicated to studying the cosmic phenomenon in the Diadem. Felix is a pioneer in his field.
  • A winding highway filled with old empty barrels will take you to the zone.
  • Characters can travel with a friend to save on gas! Parking's limited, so it might not be a bad idea.
  • At any given time, there's max several dozen visitors. Most work long hours, some are traveling through the diffusion zones, and others prefer not to risk the drive or waste precious gas, so it won't draw a huge crowd (but there's still a crowd!).
  • This is a mingle rather than an event. Plot-heavy elements will be minor. The game's first proper event will be posted in July!
What does my character know?
  • Having lost his phone, Felix will spread the word using good old-fashioned printed posters that he's put up around Panorama. A young woman is seen helping him. They appear to be close. Some say that's his daughter.
  • Though the timing is impossible to predict accurately, Felix believes that due to this zone's unusual proximity to an anchor point, it has a high chance of persisting for 2-3 weeks.
  • Directions are printed on the posters, though characters are also free to stumble across the zone by accident.
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Introduction
The resort looks like your typical upscale vacation spot: a beautiful pool, lovely cabins, and plenty of pool chairs. The sky is perpetually nighttime and there are two moons. One moon is smaller than its sister and glows purple. The other looks like the Earth's moon. The weather is pleasantly warm. In fact, conditions are almost too perfect.

Other fluxdrifts are here, too, and you might come across them, all of whom are taking advantage of the pool. They'll converse superficially with you and will come and go randomly. You'll want to keep a close eye on your belongings. Other than cooling off, this isn't a bad place to start making connections. Life in the Diadem is better when you've got allies if not friends.

Just outside the resort is a spacious parking lot, designed for visitors. Nobody's following parking rules so put your car anywhere it fits. If you get blocked in, well, that's a problem for when you leave.

At the end of June, the diffusion zone will flicker and morph into an unremarkable overgrown park, long abandoned to the decades.

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Prompts
As you wander around, you discover deactivated androids in many of the poolside huts. These androids cannot be mistaken for any organic species: their chassis is metal, and their heads are shiny. Circuits and wires are visible. But each is dressed distinctly human in a way that borders on disturbing. You spot lipstick drawn on some of the metal faces, as though they're playing dress up...or as if they don't realize they aren't human. One android is frozen in place with a diary clutched in its hands. Another has a hairbrush for its nonexistent hair.

Something seems to have destroyed them—perhaps a powerful EMP wave that knocked them all out. All except one.
The Bartender
The poolside bar is at the eastern end of the resort. There are plenty of seats. A few are occupied by deactivated androids. The bartender is also an android and appears to be the only functional one in this place. He speaks with a modulated voice and has a neutral accent. He exhibits the following behaviors if you sit at his bar:
  • Icebreaker. Whether you're alone or with a companion, he'll try to get you all to be friends, asking random self-generated icebreaker questions. He'll be visibly disappointed if you don't play along.
  • Bartending. While cheerful, he can't make the correct drink: it's always too strong, incredibly weak, added salt instead of sugar, messed up the ice. He's obviously doing his best, but it's just not working. The harder he tries, the worse he performs until it becomes a comedy of errors with stuff falling over, ice dumped in your lap, champagne corks flying, and any number of slapstick mishaps. You can help him out by mixing the drink yourself.
If you're nice to him, he'll introduce himself as Thomas Lustras. He's happy to tell you about his son. Strange, you think, but who says androids can't have paternal instincts? Yet, when the android takes out his wallet to show you a photo of his son—named Edward Lustras—the picture is that of a human child, roughly 5 years old, in the arms of his human father.

The driver's license in the same wallet confirms that Thomas is (was?) a real person. The picture on the license matches the human male in the photo. A half-scorched business card states that Thomas was a consultant at Outer Rim Resettlements. Thomas believes he's on a company retreat and wistfully declares he's eager to return home to his son.

Maybe don't look too closely. After all, this place will soon disappear. And so will he.
The Grill
It's not a vacation without a grill! Not a grillable item is in sight, though, so you'll have to rely on what you can bring out of Panorama. Some of the visiting drifters will pitch in to share, unloading hotdogs (some synthetic, others authentic, and some far past expiry), burger patties (same) and buns, and "kebabs" made of blocky frozen vegetable squares. The squares vaguely resemble corn, mushrooms, and pineapple. The texture is passable, like a flavor-infused block of tofu.

Fire up the grill and take turns grilling. You'll also have to manage the propane. The grill's also prone to sputtering out, requiring regular minor repairs to get it back up and going. Any loose bolts or screws can be taken out of the dead androids to replace the rusty ones in the grill. You're unsure if you should feel uncomfortable doing that or what, but it is a solution.
Parking Woes
Like any crowded event, the parking lot can get chaotic, and the lawlessness of the diffusion zones doesn't help. While some are happy to help barbecue, others are more interested in picking fights over who got to the parking space first. It won't take much for a fistfight to break out, and a knife fight isn't out of the question, either, though nobody'll be killed (this time).

You can let the troublemakers beat each other, or you can try to intervene if somebody who doesn't deserve it is getting harassed. Just avoid causing too much of a scene. Breaking noses is acceptable; gutting someone head to toe is not. There are Enforcers visiting the zone, and if you interfere with their nice pool time, they won't hesitate to haul away everybody involved and make you sit in jail for a few days.
Questions? Ask here
godjr: (AlexanderCa1502756)

[personal profile] godjr 2025-06-20 09:04 pm (UTC)(link)
It's ... it actually has a few steps.

[ It's not as straight forward as someone killing him, there are layers. Jack sighs and rubs his hands on his jeans, looking up at Castiel from where he's still sitting. ]

You died before I was born. I brought you back, I woke you up in the Empty, and the Shadow let you go, but it was angry. When I went to Heaven, it hunted me down, and you offered yourself in exchange for me. The Empty said it would come for you when you didn't expect it, when you were happy. You told me not to tell Dean and Sam, and I never did.

[ That was a hard secret to keep because Jack knew how much it would hurt them, but for all he knew, they would both be mortal and dead by the time that Castiel died again. The two of them had long life spans, there was no knowing when it would be, which is what Castiel said too. It's the only secret that Jack really did keep that whole time, and part of it was because of his guilt, that Castiel did that for him. ]

I don't know what happened. You and Dean were fighting Billie, and I think you might have called the Shadow to you somehow. You weren't happy but maybe it came for you anyway. It took both of you to the Empty. Dean didn't give me a lot of details, you know how he is.

[ Not the person most likely to share. Jack also didn't ask. ]

Chuck killed everyone. All our friends and allies, all the other lives in Heaven and Hell and on Earth. He left only the three of us alive, so we would suffer too before the end. So your loss, while terrible, was one of many. It only happened a day or so before I came here.

[ That amount of pain and grief, it was overwhelming, and Jack hadn't begun to unpack any of it. ]
messenger: lips parted, middle distance stare, melancholy (❝ to your odd shaped mission ❞)

[personal profile] messenger 2025-06-20 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
... What was Billie after?

[ it has him in something of a daze. so much information to take in, and it's not even the whole story. he hopes, he hopes that won't be his life in the future. he would rather die now, he thinks, though he immediately feels guilty for the thought. he loves his family. loves sam and dean and claire, too, even if she isn't really in his life any longer. he can imagine himself in the position as jack explains it. certainly he would make any sort of deal necessary to save the three of them from the fate that jack describes.

the rest is just, beyond his ability to absorb in any meaningful way. he understands the words, but he's become so used to constant timers ticking down, spelling the end times soon! soon! soon! that it hardly makes an impact any longer.

still holding both the bottle and his glass, he turns back around and pours himself a drink. he's surprised to find his hands are shaking, but the already growing puddle disguises the mess he makes. ]
godjr: (AlexanderCa1502035)

[personal profile] godjr 2025-06-20 10:14 pm (UTC)(link)
She set me up to kill Chuck and Amara so she could become the new God and put everything back in the natural order. So everyone who was supposed to die would die, and our friends from the other universe would die too. She was using me as her weapon.

[ Which isn't new for Jack so he says it in a sort of world weary way, like it's expected at this point. He trusts that Castiel wouldn't, but he clearly has been by other people before. He did trust Billie, there was logic in her plan, and he never questioned what would happen afterward, and who would fill the God-sized hole left behind. Jack is very bad at asking questions or thinking past what he's told, he's still working on that. ]

She still wanted me, she took me back out of the Empty, but Dean stopped her. Her next conflict with Dean and you was what led you to be taken from us. Dean and I really believed in her, but Sam already suspected she was hiding things.
messenger: staring, face to face, feat. dean (❝ jesus christ ❞)

cn: suicidal thoughts

[personal profile] messenger 2025-06-20 10:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[ castiel nods like he understands all of this. a part of him still believes it isn't, and won't ever be, relevant to his life. despite this, he's human enough he can't help but be affected by the idea of his own death. considering the circumstances, there seems to be a very good chance he won't be making another jailbreak— and his father obviously won't be resurrecting him again.

he picks his head up from staring down into his drink and nods as though to confirm to jack that his explanation has landed, before he turns back to the bar to pour himself another few fingers. if the empty is where angels go where they die, then the being presiding over it should be strong enough to swallow up an angel and a reaper. and if he called it on purpose... ]


If I'm gonna die, it'd be good if it were for Dean, right? Maybe I was happy.

[ not likely an admission he'd make sober. he turns halfway with the tumbler raised to his lips, eyes lidded and a little glassy. he's always wanted his death to mean something. it's why chuck bringing him back again and again was so galling, like a record skipping, ruining the rhythm and the melody. he thinks he's probably more useful dead than he is alive. ]
godjr: (3516114 (16))

CN: suicidal thoughts lol

[personal profile] godjr 2025-06-20 11:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Well ... it wouldn't be good, but I can see how that could work. I would be happy to die for someone I loved too.

[ Perhaps Jack should tell him no definitely that he shouldn't want that or it would be terrible, but he is the wrong person for it. Jack is very like his father in that he's ready to die for his loved ones without thinking about it. He was turned into a bomb ready to explode for his family, and he didn't have any regrets about it outside of he didn't fulfill his obligation. He burned his soul out for them, he was ready to sacrifice his life to Dean to end it in retribution.

Jack wants to live but he also isn't afraid to die. A part of him does think it's better if he dies, for everyone. He is too dangerous to stay alive and while his family loved him, they suffered for him, and he stressed them out. His very existence makes every day more complicated. Sam and Castiel weren't ready to accept his death to take out Chuck, but Jack was glad to get a reason to make amends for Mary. ]


I was thinking if I survived destroying Chuck, I could go get you. I'd have the power. The Shadow does like me, enough to maybe plead my case.
messenger: looking down, staring at hands, melancholy (❝ to rearrange the stars ❞)

[personal profile] messenger 2025-06-20 11:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Maybe you should let it go.

[ he takes a drink, leaning heavily against the bar, his bent knee presses against the glass, and he tries to think about what it would be like to be dead for good.

it's hard to imagine. he doesn't remember all the times he died.

then he sighs and sags, resting his head against his hand and staring morosely into his drink. ]


I miss him.
godjr: (AlexanderCa1502895)

[personal profile] godjr 2025-06-20 11:32 pm (UTC)(link)
I could at least try. Or maybe it will let us be together in the Empty. It's not the same as Heaven, but it would be something.

[ That is an ideal sort of situation for Jack if nothing else was possible. Then neither of them would have to be alone for all eternity. It would feel right to be together, him and his father, both accepting their fates and finding something better than the average Empty experience. He's allowed to hope for it, naive as it may be.

Jack gets up and moves back over to Castiel, sighing. He puts a hand on his back again, concerned.]


Castiel, you must sit. You're going to fall over again.

[ At least with the pavement gone he won't be as injured, but it still wouldn't be comfortable for either of them. Jack moves away into the bathroom and comes out with a wet towel, offering it over to Castiel so he can wash his face. It doesn't look good. ]

I miss him too. I got a job at the place I thought he would go to if he showed up here, the bowling range because they have a bar and a pool table. I thought maybe I would find him.
messenger: brows furrowed, melancholy, bloodied (❝ you were lost ❞)

[personal profile] messenger 2025-06-20 11:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[ castiel wishes... well, it doesn't matter what he wishes. he's never going to get what he wants, and that's fine. at least he might finally rest.

he almost doesn't seem to notice the hand on his back, but he takes the towel when jack offers it. distracted, he wipes his face. it removes some of the blood, but not all. red remains in the creases, caked in the pores of his skin. ]


I thought... I thought I saw him. And I... we...
godjr: (AlexanderCa1502177)

[personal profile] godjr 2025-06-21 04:11 am (UTC)(link)
[ Jack didn't expect there would be a time where his father was the hot mess and he was the one who had it together. It seems like a surreal experience since so much of his life has been him messing up or trying hard not to be the screw up. And Castiel always had faith in him through everything, which made it easier to make mistakes. ]

Back when I was soulless, Donatello told me that I had to use the morality of someone else as a guide. For him it was what would Mr. Rogers do. For me it was what would the Winchesters do.

[ It obviously didn't stop him from making horrible mistakes but the concept of it was useful. He did think more than once about what they would do, and when he stopped doing that, it's when he messed up. He stopped letting other people guide him and listened to the angels, and look how that went, but that was after Mary. He spun out. ]

Castiel, what would Dean Winchester do? If he was me, right now. What would he say to you, what would he tell you to do? Because I don't think he'd want you to hurt yourself like this.
messenger: drunk, looking down (❝ 5 minutes before u take on divinity ❞)

[personal profile] messenger 2025-06-21 04:27 am (UTC)(link)
[ castiel smiles, a brief flicker across his face and then gone. it's a good strategy. he would know. ]

I've been doing that for a long time.

[ he takes another drink, swirls it around to wash the blood from his mouth, and looks jack in the eye. ]

Dean wouldn't let me heal him when I beat him bloody. He'd be upset if we'd traded positions, but he's always been like that.

... If he were here I'd probably let him do it just for the exuse to feel him touch me, but that's neither here nor there, is it?

[ he blows out a breath between his lips, being dramatic on purpose, and crosses his arms. ]

Fine.
godjr: (3516114 (18))

[personal profile] godjr 2025-06-21 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
Dean would do anything to protect the people he loved. I learned that fierceness from all of you, but I think the way I get angry about it, and righteous, it's more like him.

[ Jack gets angry when people he loves are in danger and it leads him to be his most threatening and frightening. He crushed Michael's vessel into his eyes bleeding out of their sockets and he could only flinch, he burned Nick from the inside out, each time was about feeling his loved ones were in danger. He would bury anyone who put them that way. Sam and Castiel have their own ways of feeling that, but his anger, his underlining aggression, that's more Dean. He has little bits of all three of them in him.

It's strange to hear it phrased that way. That Castiel wanted an excuse for Dean to touch him. It's different from what he would expect. Jack gives him a speculating look but takes the permission for what it is. It's not a serious wound so it takes a very easy simple touch from him, but Castiel isn't always on the receiving end of that power. And he'll be able to get a sense of it, how strong Jack is, how much it simmers under his fingertips. ]


Take care of yourself the way you would want for Dean. You are no less deserving of love.
messenger: stare, fear, looking aside (❝ well、 i mean i'm in hell ❞)

[personal profile] messenger 2025-06-21 04:27 pm (UTC)(link)
The Righteous Man,

[ castiel mumbles to himself.

and then jack reaches out and touches him.

it'll be the first time he's ever felt jack's power. just a touch. flowing over him all at once, like golden hot sunlight skating the skin on a day so bright it burns your eyes. it's a thing easily grasped in theory, how power scales between ranks of angels. it's an understanding that's been a facet of his daily life since he was created and felt god's soft light on his face, the very thing he was born of. but theory isn't knowledge. the heat that scalds through the cold husk of his body is an entirely new thing. entirely jack.

castiel stumbles only to catch himself on the bar. he quickly pours himself another drink, glancing at jack from out of the corner of his eyes. ]
Edited 2025-06-21 17:25 (UTC)
godjr: (3516114 (23))

[personal profile] godjr 2025-06-21 10:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Jack can tell from Castiel's reaction that he might have gotten a closer look at the endless well of power that simmers underneath Jack's surface. He's as close as anyone will ever get to god, powerful enough for Chuck to fear him, and that's something he has held tightly onto from the start. That he had to be contained, somehow, and they never fully were able to do it. Now with Lucifer's power radiating on top of the rest, he's exhausted by the effort to keep himself in check.

He looks back at Castiel and something in him breaks. Sadness clouds over his expression but there's resignation there too. ]


You're afraid of me.

[ It's not a question. It's a statement. ]
messenger: lips parted, middle distance stare, melancholy (❝ to your odd shaped mission ❞)

[personal profile] messenger 2025-06-22 12:38 am (UTC)(link)
I... [ something in castiel breaks, too. even if it's not for the same reason. jack might be a good man (boy?) but god has been dethroned. his father usurped. everything has changed so much, and he's only a part of it. tossed around in the flotsam. he drinks what he can from his glass with his hand still experiencing fine small tremors, before hanging his head, defeated.

he can't help but at admit to it, even though his fear is galling.

an angel— an angel should never be afraid. ]


I know. I know that things have changed for the better. But there's still a part of me that wants— That wants to go back to how it was before.

[ his voice cracks. he rubs a hand over his face.

ridiculous. he's being ridiculous. ]
godjr: (pic#17821565)

[personal profile] godjr 2025-06-23 06:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Jack is mired in his own insecurities and issues, and people being afraid of him is high on his list of things that hurt. The fact is they should, all of them should be, he knows that, and yet it still aches because all he's wanted is to be trustworthy and safe. It was a reminder that this is not his Castiel, who trusted Jack despite all the red flags surrounding him.

But seeing Castiel break down like that shakes Jack out of his own agony and he only can think about how Castiel has made him feel better before when he was at his worst. He doesn't think about whether it's appropriate or not. He sees someone in pain and he reacts. Jack puts an arm around Castiel's shoulder and gives him a side hug, the best he can do. ]


I'm sorry, uncle. I wish I could do that for you, but you are not alone. I am here.
messenger: slight fear, looking down, rubbing the back of the neck (❝ insured that planet ❞)

feeling bad for jack hours

[personal profile] messenger 2025-06-23 11:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ castiel doesn't exactly push jack away, but he doesn't expect the embrace. he feels ashamed of his own outburst, ashamed of his drinking, ashamed of, generally, everything he's ever done but raise dean from the pit. nothing he does ever goes right. but that's no excuse to be a coward.

he gives jack an awkward pat on the back before gently extracting himself and averting his gaze. ]


It's... it's nothing to apologize for. It's good that I can't. I've destroyed too much by being weak.
godjr: (pic#17821588)

[personal profile] godjr 2025-06-24 04:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Jack lets him go. He misses Castiel's hugs. They always made him feel better and he thought maybe he could give him that feeling of security too. But he just isn't good enough for that. He can't bring him comfort or fix his problems. He can only listen to him and show as much kindness as possible. Castiel might not want his love and unwavering support but he'll get it anyway. ]

I know you've made mistakes but that doesn't mean you can't change or you can't improve. There's always room to do things better next time. I learned that from you.

[ Perhaps Castiel only did that because he experienced so much hardship and let down and his own mistakes took over his life before. Existing through all of that made him stronger on the other side and able to be a different man for Jack. This was his difficult period of time when he struggled, and it's on the other end of it that he was different. It's Jack's duty to help him now. ]

Please, Castiel, you must sit. I can bring you the alcohol. You're going to start struggling to stand right. You should drink water too.

[ Jack's never been around someone drunk but he thinks he understands the basic idea. The full bar does have bottled water alone with soda and other options so they already have that down. ]
messenger: stern, stare (❝ the heart of persephone ❞)

[personal profile] messenger 2025-06-24 04:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ castiel can't imagine changing. he can't imagine he has changed. if he sacrificed himself, as jack said, then is anything really different? when you're responsible for someone, you don't get to walk out. the parent lives for the offspring, not the other way around. it's how he knows he should never have a child. he's lucky enough that claire should be in his life— it would be greedy and self-serving to ask for more, knowing what kind of person he is. but maybe that's how this happened— maybe that's why.

castiel doesn't speak, but he does listen. he returns to the bed, still with a surprisingly steady gait, though he sloshes his drink over his hand more than once. ]
godjr: (AlexanderCa1501095)

[personal profile] godjr 2025-06-24 05:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's true that Castiel left him, but he also left him with Dean and Sam, who he knew would continue to be there for Jack. His death is on Jack's shoulders either way, it was for him it happened. Jack takes that sacrifice seriously, as he does most things. Castiel proved his selflessness for Jack many times, often putting him above all others. The idea of leaving him in the Empty feels wrong, but he also didn't ask anyone to save his own life. It's a cycle for them.

Jack waits until Castiel is sitting and he relaxes, taking the alcohol that he sees in the cabinet and bringing it back over. He pulls up a chair instead of sitting on the bed this time. He thinks that alcohol poisoning is unlikely for an angel, even a weak one, but it's important he stays. ]


Castiel, this can't be your life now. You have to find a reason to keep going here.
messenger: brow arched, profile (❝ chondrocladia lyra ❞)

[personal profile] messenger 2025-06-24 05:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[ one might ask whether self-sacrifice isn't its own kind of selfishness, but of course getting through to either of them on that note would be... difficult, at best. there's certainly no one who they would listen to who wouldn't be a hypocrite for making the point.

castiel peers at the alcohol, though he doesn't take the bottle from jack. he only continues to sip his own. he slouches to one side as he gestures— to himself. to his life, maybe. ]


I'm all used up.
Edited 2025-06-24 17:57 (UTC)
godjr: (AlexanderCa1501943)

[personal profile] godjr 2025-06-24 06:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Considering that's something they have in common, and Jack's nature is to put himself lower on the list of importance than everyone else, like father like son. He had to explain to Castiel that he chose to die, and it was selfish in a way, because Sam and Castiel desperately didn't want him to do it. Dean was on his side at least. He's not sure how strong he could have been against all three of their pleas for him to live when he shouldn't have. ]

You feel that way, but you will heal. Your Grace will return. It might take time, that's all.

[ Whether Castiel likes it or not, he has potentially a lot of time ahead of him. This one at least. They know that he eventually dies in Jack's timeline, but that doesn't mean it's the same fate. That may be above Jack's head though. He's not sure he fully understands any of this. ]

I'm sorry you're struggling with the weight of your decisions but you're in a new situation here.
messenger: far shot, neutral (❝ taste of blood ❞)

[personal profile] messenger 2025-06-24 06:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[ castiel gestures again, sloppy in his movements. he just feels like he should point out— ]

My Grace doesn't have anything to do with it.

[ in fact, he had nearly forgotten that small issue in his drunkenness. perhaps amara could sense his dwindling power. perhaps that's why she said what did. but castiel knows, in his heart of hearts, that she said it because she saw into him, and through him, and judged him unworthy.

god, and now god's sister. who's he to disagree? ]


I am. [ he agrees, maybe a little more forcefully than necessary. volume control. that's a thing. ] I don't have anymore responsibilities.
godjr: (AlexanderCa1500070)

[personal profile] godjr 2025-06-25 11:00 pm (UTC)(link)
You do. To yourself. You have to take care of yourself.

[ Jack has removed himself as a responsibility. At this point, it is very clear that Castiel is in no position to take care of anyone else, so himself is the best that he'll be able to do. Jack is not used to being the one who (mostly) has it under control, even with his father's swirling power inside him, radiating. He hasn't lost control yet. ]

Maybe you don't want to exist right now, but you do, so you have to take advantage of that, and live.

[ That's what Jack usually tells himself when he's forced to exist so he keeps doing it while he is. It seems like both of them are not very good at living. ]
messenger: far shot, looking down at self (❝ questionable fashion choices ❞)

[personal profile] messenger 2025-06-27 10:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[ castiel chooses not to answer. he also chooses to return the cap to the bottle and set it on its side on the mattress. he nurses the last of what's swirling around in the tumbler still clutched in his hands with small and measured sips, as though to savor the flavor he can't taste.

there are so many things he could say, and they all amount to the same thing. it's meaningless to argue. it's even more meaningless to argue with jack. he sits there in his half slump, coat wrinkled up around his hips and clinging to his thighs, legs dangling off the end of the bed. it makes him look like a little kid wearing his father's too-big clothes. a child after a tantrum, his dignity shed like his sobriety.

but children have no need for dignity. an angel does. he wonders if that's the advantage of allowing them their pride— not that it's ever helped more than it's harmed. castiel takes a deep breath, one that lifts his shoulders. they slump when he breathes out. ]


How is Dean?

[ back home, he means, of course. ]
godjr: (AlexanderCa1502143)

[personal profile] godjr 2025-06-28 12:53 am (UTC)(link)
He's struggling. Everything with Chuck, it's worn on him, deeper than the rest of us.

[ Jack is just there to finish the job and he grieves the loss of everyone around them, but at least he has a focus, and a task. He doesn't care the way everyone else does. But Dean is taking it very personally and Jack knows that for a fact because of what he said to him in the car. They made some peace between them because of Jack's willingness to die to end it all, but he knows that there was a very serious conflict between the brothers over him and over Chuck. He was about to explode at the time so he didn't catch all of it. ]

He was the only one of the three of you that was supportive of me dying to stop him. It was my choice, I wanted to. He thanked me. I guess he hadn't felt like his life was his own recently because of Chuck controlling so much of it. He thought that being without him would finally feel like freedom.

[ Jack's already displayed that he believes fate is real and free will is therefore an illusion. Toward the end there, it's also what they all started to deal with as a possibility. When up against a power like God, what were a handful of people really worth? They had to do their best. It was the closest he and Dean had come to understanding one another and feeling good about their relationship since Mary died. He would have done anything to keep that. ]

None of us had given up, despite everything.

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SOB... i'm sorry jack

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And wrap here! RIP

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