[ she hasn't really paid much mind to the couch before now. it had been a place to set her back, a storage location, a countertop. if she was in her room, it was to go to sleep (or fail to go to sleep, and spend the night sitting propped up and watching whatever was on the television, or listening to the radio, trying to keep her thoughts from spiraling.
not it feels like she's seeing it for the first time - logan settled into the cushions, and karen (noticing, trying not to notice but still noticing) how he is settling into it. how he looks less and less likely to get up and leave.
he seems surprised she would have noticed, but karen doesn't blame him. she supposes he'll figure that part out about her soon enough. his answer, though, creases her brow just a tad. it wasn't real. ]
And Panorama is?
[ because that's where her mind goes - not that he was talking about her, not that he was talking about this, but that he is finding something more real here that out there. part of karen wonders if that has to do with how long he's been here, the fact that these diffusion zones come and go, and this was really her first extended stay in one. but then another part of her can't wrap her head around... any of this. all of this.
it's not you is what he follows up with, and karen blinks, realizing - suddenly - that her thoughts had been going somewhere completely different. just...
it feels a little... she doesn't smile, exactly. but there is a hint of an uplift to the corners of her mouth. she hadn't even been thinking about that, but the fact he feels the need to specify that makes her realize, in a way she doesn't know that she'd needed to hear, that whatever their time together has been, it hasn't just been. her. it hadn't just been her asking, and him agreeing because she asked. that sends something in her stomach fluttering, but it feels... out of place, almost, with the heaviness of what logan isn't yet really talking about.
in the silence that follows, karen realizes that he's not going to finish that thought. karen's used to that, used to talking to people who don't really want to talk, don't want to open up, and karen locks into that. logan isn't one of her interviewees, isn't someone she needs to dig information out of for the sake of a case, or a story. he's not that, he's not a story subject, but karen... sees that there is something he's not saying, something he's not completely closed off to, so she presses. ]
no subject
not it feels like she's seeing it for the first time - logan settled into the cushions, and karen (noticing, trying not to notice but still noticing) how he is settling into it. how he looks less and less likely to get up and leave.
he seems surprised she would have noticed, but karen doesn't blame him. she supposes he'll figure that part out about her soon enough. his answer, though, creases her brow just a tad. it wasn't real. ]
And Panorama is?
[ because that's where her mind goes - not that he was talking about her, not that he was talking about this, but that he is finding something more real here that out there. part of karen wonders if that has to do with how long he's been here, the fact that these diffusion zones come and go, and this was really her first extended stay in one. but then another part of her can't wrap her head around... any of this. all of this.
it's not you is what he follows up with, and karen blinks, realizing - suddenly - that her thoughts had been going somewhere completely different. just...
it feels a little... she doesn't smile, exactly. but there is a hint of an uplift to the corners of her mouth. she hadn't even been thinking about that, but the fact he feels the need to specify that makes her realize, in a way she doesn't know that she'd needed to hear, that whatever their time together has been, it hasn't just been. her. it hadn't just been her asking, and him agreeing because she asked. that sends something in her stomach fluttering, but it feels... out of place, almost, with the heaviness of what logan isn't yet really talking about.
in the silence that follows, karen realizes that he's not going to finish that thought. karen's used to that, used to talking to people who don't really want to talk, don't want to open up, and karen locks into that. logan isn't one of her interviewees, isn't someone she needs to dig information out of for the sake of a case, or a story. he's not that, he's not a story subject, but karen... sees that there is something he's not saying, something he's not completely closed off to, so she presses. ]
Just what?