[ there are a lot of reasons why jack is here, but his love is— just part of the problem. whatever he may have given him, he also gave him this burden: to believe he deserves to die, and that the world would be better for it. if he is jack's parent, how can he say he hasn't failed? this is not the life he would want for a child he's meant to care for.
this isn't the life he wanted for anyone.
castiel kicks off his shoes and pulls himself up into bed, ignoring the water. of course he can't sleep, only lie in silence and stare at the far wall. if jack wants to stay and watch him, he won't ask that he go. but he won't stop him from leaving, either. ]
SOB... i'm sorry jack
[ there are a lot of reasons why jack is here, but his love is— just part of the problem. whatever he may have given him, he also gave him this burden: to believe he deserves to die, and that the world would be better for it. if he is jack's parent, how can he say he hasn't failed? this is not the life he would want for a child he's meant to care for.
this isn't the life he wanted for anyone.
castiel kicks off his shoes and pulls himself up into bed, ignoring the water. of course he can't sleep, only lie in silence and stare at the far wall. if jack wants to stay and watch him, he won't ask that he go. but he won't stop him from leaving, either. ]